unbroken child

[OMGNIGHT]

I was sitting in class and our fifth grade teacher told us to describe a favorite place and why, the only place I could think of was my attic, ever since I was little I spent a lot of time in my attic, playing with my rag toys, I make believe I was anything to escape the reality I was living in. I could imagine that my attic was a palace, a castle, a different world. My attic was also a place to escape people. Sometimes I sleep up there, but mostly I hide up there from my daddy. Ever since my mother had died daddy started hitting and doing nasty things to me when he drunk, when he sober he tends to argue and apologize a lot , when he leave to go to work, I rush downstairs to take a bath, grab some clothes, and food. I felt safe and secure in my attic. I didn’t want to write these things on my paper because I was afraid that daddy might read it and get mad so I lie and said my favorite place was mc Donald, it wasn’t my favorite place but I like it, especially the happy meal it really cheers me up.
When recess came everyone was exciting and ran to their friends to play. I play with myself all the time, no one wanted to play with me because they think im weird, and smell weird. I couldn’t help that my clothes didn’t get wash as often as I like. I was used to playing alone anyways so I didn’t mind it much. This day was different though, I was playing with the rocket ship, and a boy came up to me. It scared me so I back up some. “hi im Demetrius” he said holding his hand out. He stood there waiting for me to say something. No one ever spoke to me but my teacher Mrs. Rose, she was really nice to me. “ im arielle” I didn’t shook his hand because my hand was dirty, I didn’t want him to get dirty, nor did I want him to call me dirty so I hid my hands behind my back, before he could say something else a group of girls walk up behind him. “Hey Demetrius im Lola” she smile at him. She stare at me with disgust and anger. Lola was the cleanest, popular girl in our fifth grade class. Everyone wanted to be her friend, but I didn’t, I thought she was mean and full of herself and insecure that she had to make other people feel unworthy of their self to boost her shattered ego.
Lola- why are you talking to this dirty girl ( the girls behind her started laughing, I walked away from them and went to the other side of the room to play with myself again)
While I was playing with myself I notice he kept looking at me, while he was playing with the other kids, it was creeping me out, like why is he looking at me, when recess was over we all went to lunch, I like lunch here, it tasted good, I finally ate something different everyday, and I also had the chance to drink milk. I loved milk. Once I got my tray and sat down, I saw Demetrius follow behind me and sat in front of me.
Lola- Demetrius you can sit with us (she flipped her hair) I don’t think you want to sit with her she might steal your food ( on key the girls behind her started laughing, I roll my eyes at her and started eating)
Demetrius- no im okay ( he turn back around)
Lola- suit yourself, don’t say I didn’t warn you (she walk away)
Arielle- you don’t have to sit here, there other places you can sit.
Demetrius- (smile) I want to sit here
Arielle- why are you being so nice to me
Demetrius- you want me to be mean to you
Arielle- (bite into food) that’s what im use to ( talking with food in mouth)
Demetrius- people shouldn’t be mean to people, especially to you (he smile again)
Arielle- (smile) thank you, sorry if I smell bad
Demetrius- (laugh) you don’t smell bad ( there he go again trying to be nice)
Arielle- you don’t have too lie, everyone says it
Demetrius- (drink milk) it doesn’t bother me though
Arielle- are you new to this school
Demetrius- yes, my parents just move in to this town
Arielle- oh..
We talked until it was time to go back to class, he walk with me there, and he sat next to me in class, I never had someone spend so much time with me, I never spent that much time with nobody but my doll baby, my doll baby was my best friend, she been there for me, I think she might not like Demetrius. Once school was over Demetrius stay with me until it was time for him to go. I started to walk home, walking home was good for me, because I get to look around outside, when I’m home I don’t get out much because im in the attic, so I take time to look at the green trees and the beautiful flowers, and hear the dogs barks and people having fun. Once I got home my whole mood change, it like I was walking to a danger zone, I unlock the door and walk into the dark house.

[happy llama]

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